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Originally Posted by RRRED
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I'm "feeling" like I got ran over by a truck but I'm counting my blessings and so grateful for everything I have. My girl and I are still workin it and functioning really good. I'm alot slower and more mellow than I used to be cuz I maintain a constant state of almost like meditation, calm breathing, and it's like looking at the world as I've never seen it before. My chest is pretty much in a constant state of pain and tightness that I gotta mentally control. People think I"m "spacey" now but I am always just relaxed and taking things in with serenity and calmness. Kinda like a great grandma would...
But the holidays were much more difficult than last year. I can't even remember last Christmas except screaming at Walmart....
I miss you Mike... it's been forever and it creeps me out how far back we go... like school and we're aging! Can we graduate yet? lol
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I'm in San Diego, been here long enough now that it feels cold in the winter
Well, it sounds like you're starting to heal --- I'm happy to hear it
Just try to be as patient as you can while you heal, which I know is easy to say but it sounds like you've also got a great handle on the mental side of things, which is a major plus
The real dangerous temptation is thinking you're physically ready to go out and tackle the world before you really are --- and winding up back in bed because you pushed too hard is enough to rattle anyone's serenity
(I speak from lots of second-hand experience - Kelly has been in constant and severe pain for years now, so I totally believe you when you say the drugs definitely helped - that's often how she gets through the day, especially with our very lively and active 10-month old accidentally kicking her right in the center of her pain every time they're hanging out.)
As for the holidays, I've been a long-time proponent of a new system for Christmas - sort of like gas rationing. You celebrate Christmas based on the last number of your social security number, so that way the shopping, traffic and hysteria is spread throughout the first ten months of the year, and November and December can be calm and enjoyable
I miss you too...it's scary to think about how long I've known you and some of the others who all started in the biz around the same time we did. (I never thought I'd be able to say "more than ten years" when people asked how long I've been doing this lol.) Since I was having too much fun in the late 90s and early 00s and didn't work as hard as I probably should have (and didn't move to the dark side like some of the people we both knew/know), and with the market tanking, I'll have to win the lottery to "graduate" so I think it'll be a while, at least for me