Originally Posted by TheSquealer

My father was much like this guy. I don't think anyone can possibly understand the sheer terror you live with, when growing up like that unless you've lived it. No one could understand the psychological mind fuck it is to grow up in that environment like that, and what it is like to be 100% dependent on a parent that terrorizes you daily. Even worse, her mother appeared to be just as bad as he was. Imagine where that leaves a child. It's not a simple case of discipline, they are both nuts. Its anything, anywhere, anytime, for any reason. People just can't understand what that's like to live with and to know what its like to have that one person who is supposed to love and protect you be the one person who hurts you most, every single day.. and if he's not, you're terrified that he will for any reason.

From about age 4 to maybe 10, I had nightmares non stop. Every single night, I was screaming in my sleep. My father often thought it was funny that I was screaming all kinds of things in my sleep, cursing, swearing and so on. He never understood until I finally had it out with him much later in life, that every dream was about me trying to defend myself from him or of me hurting him.

To question her, her motivations, why she waited and so on is asinine. Her explanation is exactly what mine probably would have been... she wanted to distance herself from him and the consequences. How do you cross that line when its with a psychopath who has done nothing but abuse you in the worst ways possible? It's not as simple as it seems. It is a gross act of defiance against a person who has literally beat into you that it will not be tolerated, nor will it come without severe consequences.

To watch that video and see people make fun of her or belittle what she went through, makes me want to corner all those fucking idiots in a room and choke the life out of them with my bare hands.