Donny

Obviously I don't know much about you, other than what you've displayed here, and a general impression from having met you once at a show.

Why are you so angry all the time? Why do you have to attack people? There's always someone on the receiving end of a Franck insult or on the receiving end of your obvious misery, voiced in anger.

You really don't seem to be a happy guy, but instead unhappy with your life, and you take that out on others. It's easier to point the finger elsewhere. Believe me, I know. But it won't help you.

I know you don't fit in with others, but don't be upset about that. Normal is boring. Normal is overrated. Just be your weird self and be happy with it. That's what I do: forget what others say and just be who you are.

I homeschool my cousin. We turn in her work every 3 weeks to the public school district, but before we do I take a last look at it to make sure it fulfills the assignments she was given. One of her assignments is to write at least 5 sentences a day about whatever topic she chose. Just a few weeks ago, I ran across this entry, and it cracked me up:

"Donny:

Donny is a freak. He is always being so silly. There is not one day that goes by that he is being normal. His favorite food is hot dogs then there is sushi, and then anything that is edible. He loves food! Why do you think his belly is so big? God isn't punishing him, so that?s not the reason. But even with all that said he is still the best cousin ever."

You don't have to be "normal" for people to like you, Franck. Just be yourself and don't worry about what others think. Don't worry about anything but being comfortable in your own skin. I'm happy to be a silly freak. I'm happy that those in my life, not here on some message board, but people who live with me and are around me all the time, call me "silly." Because with being a silly freak comes a hell of a lot of laughs, and laughter is amazing.

I know you'll find a lot to say about this, and none of it will be nice. But I'm not being mean to you. There's plenty I could say, but why do so? I can see right through you. Your anger and mean spirit are rooted in the fact that you're not happy with yourself. How's the medical insurance where you live? Will it pay for you to see a therapist? There is no shame in doing so. I've been seeing one for a long time... not too often any more, but for awhile it was every week. Now it's once every month or two. It's really nice, and helps a person stay centered.

And, of course, there is faith. Regardless of whether or not you really believe there's a God, find something to put faith into. Find something to give your life purpose and meaning. Right now, it appears you have neither.

I really hope this year brings you happiness and peace.