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Originally Posted by Elli
And she can't fly up/drive up to get her own stuff because?
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She can't, because we're playing a game.
If she does that, she's lost the game.
If I do, I lose.
If we both just say fuck it, we both lose, but can call it 'breaking even' because we both get to be close to home.
Currently, we are both losing while pretending we are winning.
One of us is going to have to manufacture some bullshit to save face, but neither of us are going to.
I refuse to admit that I fucked up by not going with her, she will refuse to admit she fucked up by leaving.
So long as no one admits wrong, we're both winners because we can blame each other.
I miss my friend. I want to move on. I would love if we both could, together. I don't think it will happen. It sucks.
I just want someone to look at the stars with and share the moments with. I dread dealing with the outside world and all the shit in it. She's the same.
We're both going to end up very sorry for the way we let this happen. At the very least, I know I'm going to. I had the chance to prevent all of this. I did not.