Originally Posted by JesseQuinn

whatever path you choose props for recognizing you need a change. I look at it this way, life is really fucking short and we all only get one go-around. It's a waste to spend 8/10/12 hours a day doing things you don't enjoy, that you're not proud of.

if I were you I'd stop thinking about options in binary 'adult'/'mainstream' terms though. why not think about what you enjoy, your skill sets, your priorities and let the ideas come to you? pre-sorting them into two arbitrary categories serves only to knee-cap your creativity and imagination. which you need, esp living abroad

as far as the 'daughter being proud of you' concern, speaking as one if it helps, it probably won't be a big deal to her either way if you live a life that teaches her kindness, strength, compassion, generosity, accountability, imagination, ethics and reason. you can do that (or lack that) in any field, including adult

wish ya good luck