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I'm pretty sure I have undiagnosed adult ADHD as I have all the symptoms to a T. Lately, I have had a lot of trouble sitting still in my desk to work. I find myself finding any excuse to get up to do anything, like wash dishes, straighten up apartment or pace the floor as I talk to myself. Until recently, living in a messy place never bothered me. I'm doing a relaunch of a new business and I feel like I keep self-sabotaging.

Anyway, I remember how some kids had to be prescribed Ritalin in school because they are so hyperactive and can't sit still. Since I had the same feeling lately, I decided to buy some Ritalin over the counter here in Mexico.

I took 10mg at breakfast and about an hour later I felt like I took a hybrid mixture of cocaine, coffee and jet fuel. I thought I would be able to focus more, but my mind was all over the place. I kept overthinking everything. I had to listen to music with a high BPM to stay calm. I felt like it was sensory overload. I went outside to take the trash out and the sun seemed extra bright. Later, I saw cockroach on the sidewalk on the way to the grocery store and started wondering about the biology of those ugly bastards. Once inside the grocery store, I found myself walking extremely quickly through the aisles like a crack addict. I just had this incredible sense of urgency and everyone was in my way. I usually feel like this normally, but x2.

When I went to the checkout, a woman in front of me was holding up the line completely obliviously slowly bagging her items, resulting in the cashier not being able to start scanning my items until she walked away (COVID distancing). I just kept thinking "G@d damn this stupid, oblivious, solipsistic b!tch" so my nerves were already shot at this time. Once she leaves, I immediately bag all my items as the cashier scans them like the efficient and considerate person I try to be, not wasting a single second of idle time.

I pay with my debit card and when I sign the receipt (for some reason there is no pin keypad at this stores checkout) I press too hard on the paper with the pen, tearing the paper, which apparently invalidates the signature.. or at least that's what I surmised given I don't understand all Spanish being spoken to me. So she calls the manager to come over to print out a new receipt for me to sign. If anyone has ever been to certain parts of Mexico, you know that nearly nothing is done quickly, not even fast food. So my heart is racing and I have to keep taking deep breaths to keep calm as I wait for the manage to arrive. I even think a security guard came over by me because it was so obvious I was about to lose it.

I actually think the Ritalin was very similar to Adderall (I have't used it in years), but maybe slightly more intense. Has anyone had the same experience?