you should get into downhill biking. i do it around 4 days a week, hard to not shit your pants when you could kill your self or at the very least break some bones every single run. my mind goes completely clear and focused doing the harder stuff, mentally exhausting. that, and travel dude. there is a whole world out there, pun intended.

Stick around. There will plenty of chaos to livin up your life here at home before long I'd imagine.

boredom leads to people doing some wild things... this morning i put in phone call to try and get on a boat and take my hazmat class to get involved with oil spill cleanup and help animals if possible. have to take drug test, physical exam, and a week long hazmat class to be trained but the idea of spending 12+ hour days on the water for a year or so sounds so much better than sitting at this desk,... LOL Herman Melville style.

i hear you on this boredom shit...

I tired going back in a few years ago, but I was told there was too many people in my MOS already and if I did I'd have to go 0311, no way I'm running around playing rambo with the 18 year olds anymore lol

Funny connection - I broke my wrist on a gnarly downhill section of a NORBA race in college and when I wanted to enlist (same reasons as AMP) they wouldn't take me because I had a pin in my wrist.

When you consider the fat, out of shape felons they are scraping the bottom of the barrel for these days I bet that little pin looks mighty attractive.

03Everything is more like it... whenever you're back in garrison if you're not training it's constant, "WORKING PARTY UP!!!"... grounds maintenance, counting shit at supply, cleaning grills... ugh... it wasn't fun at 18 and it certainly wouldn't be fun now.

agreed. and yeah, i have some 'war stories' (hardy harhar) too. I broke my wrist 2 years ago as well. and I broke 4 ribs on my left side both the year before last, and then managed to do it again last year lol. they still kind of hurt at times, but you live with it :glugglug

Been thinking about this here.... and I think you've landed on the answer. Of all of the things I've done, from soldiering through long haul driving and Internet to today, the only regret I have is having sat on my ass in front of a computer for the last ten years. After everything I've seen out there, nothing in the suburban world even compares. It's a completely different life.

I never leave the house, I have no actual human friends that, you know, you can see with your eyes or reach out and physically touch and shit. Not only am I bored with everything, but I'm bored at the idea of things. Everything is bland to me.

I used to go rappelling off bridges and cliff faces and shit like, 3 or 4 times a week, just for fun. My life in suburbia consists of "Oh say, um... such and such is having a 'Welcome Party' for their new kitten, so we should start thinking of what type of dessert and wine to bring, mkay?" "Yes dear." :( It's not that I don't love my wife, it's just the most... time wasting, money wasting, unnecessary everyday crap like this... that there will be enough food to feed 300 people. Makes me wish I was in a coma.

When I soldiered and was on the road, (1987-1999) all I used to dream of was "having a normal life in like, an apartment or something with cable bills and a girlfriend or hangin' out with friends bbqing meat and shit...." and then I finally got it. And it sucks. :disgust

My time on a submarine taught me a few things, like I have "NO" phobias
But after 4 years in, I just don't see doing it anymore, then I have been out for some time now and the game has changed alot.
You're in need of a new adventure, not the old one

Strap dat shit on foo.

Having some bullets fired up ye arse will motivate you and refocus your life priorities.

Yes. If you were already in the military, you can make more money working for Blackwater as a merc.

I can imagine every veteran has this feeling at least a couple of times.

Long ago you wrote they used you as testcases in Iraq (first GW), that should be enough man, somebody using you as testcases. Fuck 'm.

seems like a dramatic change man.

and what the hell is Blackwater

I would think that there would be better alternatives in the hunt for thrill in your life than to put yourself in deadly harm's way. Patriotism is one motivator, but you seem to just be bored with the daily grind. Personally, I wouldn't do it.

never mind, found it...

http://www.dvorak.org/blog/wp-conten...blackwater.jpg

You must have lived in a hole since the Iraq war started, didn't you?

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Blackwater_Worldwide

:1orglaugh :1orglaugh :1orglaugh

Just not into all the wars and all ;-)

My wife will absolutely shit a monkey if I re-enlist.

I just envisioned that and it made me 'lol'.

Guess that settles that.

Oh neither am I, just that there's been a lot of controversy over their involvement in the war zones over the past 7 years.

Yeah, I know. One of the family is signed on with a merc company since he got out of the military about 4 years ago. He's been in Afghanistan since, and been back to visit twice. His bank account is insane. He'll easily be set for life by the time he decides to quit, if he survives that long.

Ditto! But not anymore..

Blackwater changed their name though.... now it's "Xe". (pronounced Zee)

from page 1 of Moby Dick and part of the reason I am trying to get on a boat. If all goes smooth, Ill be making runs from our local dock, to Venice, all the way out to gulf and back daily, helping with the oil containment, cleanup, and animals... spending a lot of time on the water. no desire to join the navy but I love being out on the water, waiting on the call to get started, exciting! Me, my fellow shipmates, my sombrero, and the open water. Haaarghh!

I still don't know if it's hunt for thrill, or avoiding regret. I don't regret the knowledge I've gained, but I feel like I'm wasting away sitting at a comp all day. I already regret the last ten years, so am I not still on the path to regretting another ten? Feel like I have more to offer the world than just making porn websites. I don't really care about the money issue, (soldiers don't hardly make shit), the most important thing for me is not feeling like I wasted my life at a desk. If I don't do something to change that now, I probably never will.

I broke 3 ribs a few years ago, too.

Jailhouse brawl, tho.

I doubt you will acheieve anything more than posting on GFY, the fact you had to post here to decide to back up your lame ass story shows what a loser you are.


sad sack of shit

You could get a job cleaning up the oil spill in the gulf. I don?t think it pays that much, but it would be some hard physical outdoor work for the next several months and break the monotony your feeling right now.

In truth it's better not to get back into what was originally a good memory, offering challenge and intrigue and risk. Chasing a memory....

From a mental standpoint you probably aren't as quick instinctively, and potentially have a more jaded viewpoint on the reasons why war happens and generally have a more advanced concept of consequence than you did in your youth.

As a result of that awareness of consequences through actions you might have pause for thought during a critical mission and that could be disastrous. Is that something you recognize now? If it's even entered your mind as a possibility you shouldn't head back to war.

I don't mean to come across as overly critical because I have a lot of respect for you through reading many of your posts over the last year or so.

This is a bare bones assessment of your state of mind. As a young grunt second thoughts weren't going to get in the way. These days you have seen enough "reality" to double check your data, which could be a life or death decision.

My 2 cents.

call me out if i'm spouting BS, won't be offended.

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Go for it Amp!

I miss the chow hall big time.

Don't know what to say here... just had to say that......

All good points. To apply KISS...you did not like the Army well enough to stay in the first time around...and at your advanced age you will like it even less the second time around.

Your memory of the miserable times you had in the Army (especially during Desert Shield/Desert Storm) have faded...so you need to rethink.

I spent six years in the Army and don't regret a day. Serving your country is an honorable thing to do and you should be commended for considering re-enlisting.

To be in the military is to live a real life of value and meaning. And, at the end of the day, you feel that you have really accomplished something.

Well...I spent 12 years in the Army and would have been a 30 year man if I had not been forced to accept a Medical Discharge due to injuries recieved during Desert Storm...but the Military definitely is not for everyone...and if one does not like it well enough the first time around to re-enlist one is not likely to like it any better the second time around.