bryc

This post may seem out of place here on GFY but I have recently experienced a life changing moment of clarity and wanted to share it with as many people as possible...

I have had a problem for about 17 years now (since I was in my mid to late teens). It's a problem that I somehow created in my mind and it grew to be a monster. The problem was, I was a type of perfectionist. Most people that I'd read about as being perfectionists were somewhat successful because they gave their best to everything they did. But it had a different effect on me. It stopped me from doing anything. I felt that if I didn't do something exactly perfect, even on the very first attempt, then I was shit. I pretty much wound up laying extreme amounts of guilt and anxiety on myself. As more and more time has passed, I have found it nearly impossible to work on projects for more then 2 days at a time. Something would interfere and I would shut down and stop working. I have always had the desire to be a better person in every way and would make up these rules to live by that dealt with every part of my life, but with my perfectionist personality, I could barely get started without throwing in the towel. I was totally unforgiving on myself with any "screwup". This problem has affected everything in my life, from parenthood to my business aspirations and everything in between. I was my own worst enemy.

Where did it start, Im not exactly sure. I used to read a lot when I was younger about musicians who spent countless hours perfecting their technique. I think I may have picked up a lot of the problem from that era in my life. (I did give up playing music quite a few years back)

But, recently I read an article in a magazine about people who self destruct and how the guy simply just allowed himself to make mistakes and live with himself not being perfect, not giving himself a hard time about it. Also the fact that everyone experiences this to some degree, even people who are already successful. Something so simple never occured to me because I had never really analyzed the root of my problem. I always thought that maybe I just wasn't meant to be successful at anything. I was surrounded by people who didn't seem to have any drive in their lives (at my day job). I wondered what was wrong with me that I had all this drive and still couldnt make it happen. And I swear to God, as soon as I read that article and thought to myself, "hey maybe I should try..." I felt about 1000 pounds of shit lift off my shoulders. It was gone just like that. I am simply amazed at all the things in my life that I can apply this to now and am shocked that I never saw it through the haze. I know I wont undo all the years worth of damage in
any short amount of time but I'm just extremely happy to have discovered an answer.

I have been in this business since late 2000. I have done ok, but if I had a gallery that didnt sell or a site where I couldn't build the traffic, I would just check out for a week or so and spend my days reading the boards. (I did learn a lot by doing that tho ). When I got my head back in the game I would "start over" and thus the vicious circle. One thing I am proud of tho, is that I never gave up completely. I always had faith in myself. After 17 years or so I am still here trying to push forward. I haven't turned to drugs or booze. My motivation has always been extremely high and I have written down and saved all my ideas over the years. I have given a lot of thought to what I want to do right now in life and whether this is the path I want to be on. And it most certainly is.

So, why do I post this here? Basically I wanted to announce my rebirth into the world Ive got a lot of time to make up for. I have a lot of ideas to put into motion and I plan on putting a big ass dent in this business. I plan on moving forward and achieving all the goals I have set for myself in this business. So keep an eye out for that dust cloud in your rear view mirror (Lightspeed, Bradshaw, MarcDe, etc)

Thanks for listening!

LittleSassy

that is os inspiring! thanks for sharing im sure a lot will learn from this....

good luck on your biz!!!

bryc

Thanks LittleSassy

F U S I O N

Sorry for the bump....

Anyone know if this guy is still around?

ProducerCashDave

Woah how did you dig this one up

__________________

$25 PPS | 50% Revshare | 5% Webmaster Referral

David K. | Account Manager | www.ProducerCash.com
ICQ: 480757149 | david AT producercash DOT com
TOLL FREE: 877-549-1112

F U S I O N

I was thinking back to a post made a while back by someone about perfectionism. This wasnt it but it caught my eye...

fujiko

good luck.. its always a good thing to start afresh & stick to your plans.