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bizarredollars · 09-06-2006, 11:15 PM

I am sorry for writing this on GFY, i just think it will be easier to give people a link to this thread rather than explaining things over and over again via icq, email etc... when I am feeling more motivated I will install wordpress and start keeping a blog about this...

It is 6.48 here.. I got smashed last night in an attempt to forget what happened yesterday... it did not work..

Please don't get me wrong, I KNOW that many people are in a worse place than me, or have been in worse situations than me.. In this thread, I am being selfish, and I am willing to admin that.. in the real world, I am NOT being sellfish, I am spending all the time I can comforting my father and grandmother..

My father went to see his doctor because he was having to go to the toilet a LOT more than usual (number 1)... they took some piss samples and blood samples... he has had blood in his piss since he was in his twenties, since a farm wall rushed and landed on him.. so we did not worry about that to much.. but last Friday, his doctor called him, and told him that they had found a lot of toxins in his urine..

The thought that this might be due to his enlarged prostate (which was diagnosed many years ago), but the level of blood and toxins was enough for them to fast forward the hospital appointment.. this was on Friday... anyone who knows about the NHS knows following is a bad sign... On Monday they called and told him he had to attend the hospital on Wednesday morning (yesterday) for an ultrasound and something else (I can't remember what it is called, but it basically involved a finger up the arse followed by a camera down the cock)...

The ultrasound showed a lot of 'Debris' in his bladder... the camera showed much worse... A tumor.. we don't know if it is malignant or not yet, he has to go in for a biopsy to find out... the biggest kicker is... they said he would be to 'shook up' to complete a preadmittance form (he was totally calm, I was freaking out a little).. so he has to wait for an appointment to do that, BEFORE, he gets an appointment for his biopsy... talk about fucking bureaucracy gone mad... No wonder the NHS is so glogged up... I have the form they want him to fill in, I was with him, and could have completed it for him in five minutes flat... he could have confirmed and signed it.

We do not know yet if his life is in danger - but I do know the word malignant means spreading, and will kill you, I am not going to look on wikipedia and frighten myself until I know the results of the biopsy..

My fathers mother (grandma) has always been a very nervous person... after my mother died, she used to come and take care of me... if my dad was five minutes late, she would automatically assume he was lying dead in a ditch somewhere.. (this is a side issue, but she lost both of her parents in a house fire when she was 9). So she is freaking out more than anyone, and her health is not good.. The state she is in now, I am worried will cause a heart attack or something.

I will try to be online as much as possible, my sites are rocking, my designers are all hard at work... so nothing should change their... but please do not expect fast answers from me personally any time soon... I usually keep my private life private... But when it comes to family stuff, I have to put them first, and feel I should explain myself to the people I deal with.

To my affiliates.. DO NOT WORRY.. the members areas are setup to update automatically for the next 6 months... and new sites will still be opened on time.. I will be spamming them here very soon, once I have got my head around the current situation. I won't be on ICQ much for the next few days, if you want to contact me... alan (at) bizarredollars.com is the best way...

To anyone I owe a reply to, I will get round to it as soon as I can..
Peace and love to you all.. - Alan.

PS: Sorry for any spelling mistakes.. I still have the shakes

GrouchyAdmin · 09-06-2006, 11:17 PM

Good luck with your dad, Alan.

bizarredollars · 09-07-2006, 12:15 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by toonpornblog

Good luck with your dad, Alan.

Thanks... hopefully it won't be as bad as it sounds... but my family are very close so everyone is freaking out.

OG LennyT · 09-07-2006, 12:19 AM

goddam

good luck getting through this

wdsguy · 09-07-2006, 12:20 AM

gluck with things man, family comes first.

thumbdesigner · 09-07-2006, 01:33 AM

Good Luck.. I going to email you later today ..

notabook · 09-07-2006, 01:45 AM

My grandfather went through that. Started pissing blood and went to the doc. They did all the tests and whatnot, discovered the tumor in his bladder, it had spread from there to his prostate as well. Since he had a 100 year pack life (heavy smoker, stopped around ten years ago), doc said this was fairly normal. He did over 1k of these surgery?s and said in all but two the person had been a fairly heavy smoker.

Anyways, he didn?t want to have the surgery but family talked him into it. He got it done, healed ok (but slow). He got his bladder + prostate removed. He died around two years after that. Without the surgery he would have lasted a couple of weeks according to the doc but I think he would have lasted much longer. He probably would have done better if he could have had chemo but because of his age/condition, they didn?t give it to him.

Anyways, if your pops has a similar history of smoking and whatnot, just take it seriously. Hopefully it ain?t the same thing but it sounds almost identical.

Lykos · 09-07-2006, 02:08 AM

I am really sorry to hear that mate...
Please email me or answer my phone call ASAP
thanx

bizarredollars · 09-07-2006, 02:47 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lykos

I am really sorry to hear that mate...
Please email me or answer my phone call ASAP
thanx

Sorry about that - I am running talking with my fathers business contacts... I wish I could have spent some time talking to you.. and I very sorry if I was a little snappy when I spoke on the phone.. It was not my intention.. it just seems like everything in coming in waves today... one person, another, a few seconds, another..

My dads office number is diverting to my home phone number at the moment, so anyone who calls my business number will be asked to call back.. I am going to catch up tomorrow..

-- Alan

ps.. Lykos, lets do this by email it is better for me right now.

bizarredollars · 09-07-2006, 03:48 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by bizarredollars

Sorry about that - I am running talking with my fathers business contacts... I wish I could have spent some time talking to you.. and I very sorry if I was a little snappy when I spoke on the phone.. It was not my intention.. it just seems like everything in coming in waves today... one person, another, a few seconds, another..

My dads office number is diverting to my home phone number at the moment, so anyone who calls my business number will be asked to call back.. I am going to catch up tomorrow..

-- Alan

ps.. Lykos, lets do this by email it is better for me right now.

Lykos and I have sorted things out

bizarredollars · 09-07-2006, 05:07 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by notabook

Anyways, if your pops has a similar history of smoking and whatnot, just take it seriously. Hopefully it ain?t the same thing but it sounds almost identical.

My dad DOES have a history of smoking he is trying, but can't help having a 'sly' one... whenever I go to see him I give him a lecture... My mother died from chronic airways syndrome... emphasema (i dont care if I spelt it work) basically... his only release since then has been his cigars

Time will tell how bad his situation is... hopefully it will be something that can be treated.

Klen · 09-07-2006, 05:09 AM

Good luck to you.

bizarredollars · 09-07-2006, 05:19 AM

Thanks for all the nice words.. it has only been seven or so hours since I first made this post.... but I am feeling better already... I am NOT going to take any more time off work except for taking my dad to hospital (i need to be with him, otherwise he will sugarcoat everything - I need the truth)... Business as usual.. I will update and bump this thread when stuff happens if that is okay with you guys?? if not, fine... I really don't mind... as I said... I am going to start a blog to vent my feelings.

Thanks again everyone, I was expecting horrible remarks, and got nothing but the best... everyone who posted above this message has my deepest respect.

bizarredollars · 09-07-2006, 10:02 AM

UPDATE: Assesment on 14th.. Biopsy on the 18th... so I will be away for most of the week begining a week on monday.

09-06-2006, 11:15 PM	#1
bizarredollars Confirmed User Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: bizarredollars.com Posts: 1,582	Totally Gutted. I am sorry for writing this on GFY, i just think it will be easier to give people a link to this thread rather than explaining things over and over again via icq, email etc... when I am feeling more motivated I will install wordpress and start keeping a blog about this... It is 6.48 here.. I got smashed last night in an attempt to forget what happened yesterday... it did not work.. Please don't get me wrong, I KNOW that many people are in a worse place than me, or have been in worse situations than me.. In this thread, I am being selfish, and I am willing to admin that.. in the real world, I am NOT being sellfish, I am spending all the time I can comforting my father and grandmother.. My father went to see his doctor because he was having to go to the toilet a LOT more than usual (number 1)... they took some piss samples and blood samples... he has had blood in his piss since he was in his twenties, since a farm wall rushed and landed on him.. so we did not worry about that to much.. but last Friday, his doctor called him, and told him that they had found a lot of toxins in his urine.. The thought that this might be due to his enlarged prostate (which was diagnosed many years ago), but the level of blood and toxins was enough for them to fast forward the hospital appointment.. this was on Friday... anyone who knows about the NHS knows following is a bad sign... On Monday they called and told him he had to attend the hospital on Wednesday morning (yesterday) for an ultrasound and something else (I can't remember what it is called, but it basically involved a finger up the arse followed by a camera down the cock)... The ultrasound showed a lot of 'Debris' in his bladder... the camera showed much worse... A tumor.. we don't know if it is malignant or not yet, he has to go in for a biopsy to find out... the biggest kicker is... they said he would be to 'shook up' to complete a preadmittance form (he was totally calm, I was freaking out a little).. so he has to wait for an appointment to do that, BEFORE, he gets an appointment for his biopsy... talk about fucking bureaucracy gone mad... No wonder the NHS is so glogged up... I have the form they want him to fill in, I was with him, and could have completed it for him in five minutes flat... he could have confirmed and signed it. We do not know yet if his life is in danger - but I do know the word malignant means spreading, and will kill you, I am not going to look on wikipedia and frighten myself until I know the results of the biopsy.. My fathers mother (grandma) has always been a very nervous person... after my mother died, she used to come and take care of me... if my dad was five minutes late, she would automatically assume he was lying dead in a ditch somewhere.. (this is a side issue, but she lost both of her parents in a house fire when she was 9). So she is freaking out more than anyone, and her health is not good.. The state she is in now, I am worried will cause a heart attack or something. I will try to be online as much as possible, my sites are rocking, my designers are all hard at work... so nothing should change their... but please do not expect fast answers from me personally any time soon... I usually keep my private life private... But when it comes to family stuff, I have to put them first, and feel I should explain myself to the people I deal with. To my affiliates.. DO NOT WORRY.. the members areas are setup to update automatically for the next 6 months... and new sites will still be opened on time.. I will be spamming them here very soon, once I have got my head around the current situation. I won't be on ICQ much for the next few days, if you want to contact me... alan (at) bizarredollars.com is the best way... To anyone I owe a reply to, I will get round to it as soon as I can.. Peace and love to you all.. - Alan. PS: Sorry for any spelling mistakes.. I still have the shakes __________________ [email protected] icq: 205-252-550 Last edited by bizarredollars; 09-06-2006 at 11:16 PM.. Reason: Looked like shit.. reformatted it.

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09-07-2006, 01:45 AM	#7
notabook Confirmed User Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: Not a Library! Posts: 9,748	My grandfather went through that. Started pissing blood and went to the doc. They did all the tests and whatnot, discovered the tumor in his bladder, it had spread from there to his prostate as well. Since he had a 100 year pack life (heavy smoker, stopped around ten years ago), doc said this was fairly normal. He did over 1k of these surgery?s and said in all but two the person had been a fairly heavy smoker. Anyways, he didn?t want to have the surgery but family talked him into it. He got it done, healed ok (but slow). He got his bladder + prostate removed. He died around two years after that. Without the surgery he would have lasted a couple of weeks according to the doc but I think he would have lasted much longer. He probably would have done better if he could have had chemo but because of his age/condition, they didn?t give it to him. Anyways, if your pops has a similar history of smoking and whatnot, just take it seriously. Hopefully it ain?t the same thing but it sounds almost identical. __________________

09-07-2006, 02:08 AM	#8
Lykos Too lazy to set a custom title Industry Role: Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: World Posts: 31,027	I am really sorry to hear that mate... Please email me or answer my phone call ASAP thanx __________________

09-06-2006, 11:17 PM	#2
GrouchyAdmin Now choke yourself! Industry Role: Join Date: Apr 2006 Posts: 12,085	Good luck with your dad, Alan.

09-07-2006, 12:20 AM	#5
wdsguy Ryde or Die Industry Role: Join Date: Dec 2002 Location: California-Shanghai Posts: 19,568	gluck with things man, family comes first.

09-07-2006, 05:09 AM	#12
Klen Industry Role: Join Date: Aug 2006 Location: Little Vienna Posts: 32,235	Good luck to you.

09-07-2006, 05:19 AM	#13
bizarredollars Confirmed User Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: bizarredollars.com Posts: 1,582	Thanks for all the nice words.. it has only been seven or so hours since I first made this post.... but I am feeling better already... I am NOT going to take any more time off work except for taking my dad to hospital (i need to be with him, otherwise he will sugarcoat everything - I need the truth)... Business as usual.. I will update and bump this thread when stuff happens if that is okay with you guys?? if not, fine... I really don't mind... as I said... I am going to start a blog to vent my feelings. Thanks again everyone, I was expecting horrible remarks, and got nothing but the best... everyone who posted above this message has my deepest respect. __________________ [email protected] icq: 205-252-550 Last edited by bizarredollars; 09-07-2006 at 05:20 AM..

09-07-2006, 10:02 AM	#14
bizarredollars Confirmed User Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: bizarredollars.com Posts: 1,582	UPDATE: Assesment on 14th.. Biopsy on the 18th... so I will be away for most of the week begining a week on monday. __________________ [email protected] icq: 205-252-550